patterns

The mind is on my mind.

On the reboot post, I touched upon the disease of the mind and you wanted me to elaborate. To explain more, I'll share my understanding of the mind. I'm trying to communicate abstract ideas with language, so let me start there.

Isn't it amazing how people learn language? Kids seem to be able to imitate their parents and understand the meanings of all our gestures, sounds and postures. We aren't like parrots who can replicate a sound but dont understand. There's an emotional/intuitive knowing that appears in us without the need for explanation. Afterall, you can't explain a new word to someone with other unknown words.

Just try to feel and imagine what you're about to read, in your own mind.  

The mind is rarely silent. It's on autopilot just thinking thoughts. Things you need to do, maybe how to go about a task, judgements and evaluations on different subjects of your attention. Thoughts and evaluations about yourself, expectations or praise are frequently taking place without any real need or demand.

Even trying to sit with a silent mind is a challenge when you focus. In those moments of quiet you can only start to experience what the mind is. We're not our thoughts obviously, because we don't cease to exist when we're silent. We are the "thing" experiencing the thoughts, and senses. A consciousness integrated with a body.

Our consciousness has a will to exert. When we are no longer in control or free to will, that's less than ideal I'd say. The frequent chattering and murmuring of thoughts we experience is a disease of the mind. When you didn't will to think, but thoughts enter and make you feel stressed: that isn't healthy. Stress has real negative effects on the body. 

My mind fascinates me daily with it's delusions, confusions and ideas. Sometimes I'll be mulling over a plan, or how I can accomplish something...When I don't even need to or have the problem to begin with. My brain calculator likes to exercise, I guess.

Worst of all is when I have self defeating thoughts or just sad things floating around about things I cannot exert much or any will on. Sometimes we see the bad in our world and focus on how bad it is. We start to feel shitty. What can I do, how can I help? ... oh you can't? Then why is your mind tormenting you? Can you let go and be free? Is it good to share the feelings with the rest of the world? 

Observe your mind. The real you is behind the ego silently experiencing.  The laundry is ready; later!